Heyy people!!!
I’m writing after a very long time.
Lately, I haven’t really been feeling like myself… not feeling good enough. So today, I just thought — let me write it all down. Not for sympathy, not for attention, but maybe just to let it out, for me.
It’s okay to be the worst in someone’s story, even when all you did was try your best the whole time. You never did anything wrong — you were just misunderstood again and again. You did what they liked, you prioritized their happiness, their comfort, their opinion. You kept thinking, “Will this hurt them? What will they think?”.You made sacrifices, gave up friendships, stayed quiet,and after all that, you still ended up hearing things like “I’ll cut off every relation with you” or “ You are Dead to them.”
Boom!! thats where you lose…
You break inside a little every time, but somehow keep showing up — hoping one day they’ll see the real you.
What hurts even more is you can never truly be yourself around them. Always editing your words, hiding your truth, shaping yourself into someone they might accept — and still, it’s never enough. And sometimes, a complete stranger makes you feel safer than the people who claim they’re here to protect you. Let’s accept it – sometimes the people closest to you judge you the most.
And then you are being reminded again and again that you have to live on their terms, the way they want it because they are “paying” for you. It makes you question your own worth, makes you feel like you owe your life.
So the conclusion becomes very clear: all you need is money.
Because the moment you have that, you don’t owe anyone anything.
This whole concept of love, care, and family — sometimes it really feels like it’s all just words. Because no one actually shows it.
With Love❤️ Priyanshi Agarwal
